being emotionally abused has made me incredibly defensive towards being told what to do, but at the same time has made it hard for me to do things without someone telling me that it’s ok to do out if fear of doing something wrong and getting in trouble
watching a boy unbutton his pants to take his dick out makes me have the same feeling like when I’m in a restaurant and i see my food coming to my table
side effects of being numb due to mental illness:
- not crying for weeks and weeks on end til one day breaking down over something not actually worth getting upset for
- not being able to tell if your feelings for people are platonic or romantic or if you’re just lonely
- instead of caring too much not caring at all about anything
- not being able to process anything going on in your life and when you try your brain stalling out
- losing your train of thought every five seconds so when you try to have a conversation having to pause and remember what you were trying to say
- word vomiting
- mind ‘STATIC’
(Source: petalsoftie)


